♪ 연애조건 - 윤하

When things get bad, EVERYTHING gets bad. -_-;

Ok, so I failed my D&T open book test yesterday. Because I didn't see the goddamned last page, and I refused to cheat. I know. Stupid. But after all the shit that's happening, I need a reason to feel good about myself. I know someone who did cheat, but that's ok. I'm going to hope that my model is good enough to at least let me get a decent grade overall.

So yeah, I'm not aiming for anything TOP anymore. As long as I get promoted, heck everything else.

Wow, pessimistic~ Mainly because no one gives a damn if I do well anyway. My parents think I MUST do well. Its a norm, not a necessity. Well, screw that. I'm a human, I slip up. And I've finally done so.

I love my seniors. ♥ I'll get over him k? I'm ok, I've been through this before. Besides, exams are coming. Its about time I ditch the comp, and we go studying, yeah? ^^ Don't waste your breath trying to talk to him, he's beyond talking. Thank you for trying, though. Weihan ah~ Don't be mad at him for saying "I don't know" when you asked if our friendship or his computer is more important, k? He only knows how to say I don't know and I guess so.

Thank you, my darling Hyx, for listening to me rant the WHOLE of last night. I LOVE YOU!

Went to the hospital today for my physiotherapy and doctor's appointment. What can I say, I attract trouble and illnesses. Know what? I nearly in-your-faced my mum. Because wow, there IS something wrong with my back. It isn't because I'm a fat slob and I don't go running, thus my back hurts when I do long-distance running. That's her diagnosis. Well no. My left pelvic bone is quite loose, and the last curve of my spine is too high up. And thus that has to be fixed, and yes, I was right about there being something wrong.

Fuck, I know my body, don't I? They didn't believe me earlier, so yay for late treatment.

Oh yeah, and I've been diagnosed with the early stages of diabetes. It can be reversed, but forget all the yummy food. The blood test is clear, but I've got the early symptoms, so if I don't do something about myself, I'll get diabetes later in life. Am I sad? Yes.

You know, I'm very fortunate for someone my age, don't you?

Isn't it funny how when I really need someone, no one is really there? But I'm strong. If I can get over my brother, I didn't actually, I can get through this.

Writing therapy! ;D