I finished reading Fruits Basket!
HAHA.
Ok, I'm so slow.
BUT I TOOK 4 DAYS!
Yeah, been QUITE busy with shit and all.

Anyways, I've been underperforming in class.
TRUE WORDS FROM LAURENE.
Haha.
I nearly failed IH test, but it was a 12, I can't say ANYTHING.
I think I'll ask Mr Ang to review it when he gets back, I can't trust Ms Lorh.
Anyways, my OVERALL CA1 grade for ENGLISH is a B3.
Seriously depressed.
I have NO idea what is up with me, OR the teacher, but...
Gotta buck up.
WANNA GO TO VJC.
HWAITING! ♥

I feel weak.
Its amazing how you can feel sad, and it'll affect you physically.
But I will feel better tomorrow.
I WILL BE POSITIVE!
I'm writing a story, I'm starting one.
I hope I actually COMPLETE this one.
AJA!

Its better for us this way.
I realised, I really want you to find your happiness.
I don't think that happiness is with me.
I'm controlling, and all that.
I doubt you even trust me sometimes.
I'd rather walk away hurt, than have you in pain.
I think its good that I found out about Valentine's.
Its not a big deal to you, but to me its another betrayal.
You can't understand it.
Because you're not me.
You haven't been through what I've been through.
All my life, I've been rejected.
I don't feel accepted in my family.
Which is why I crave acceptance by people.
Which is why I tend to trust people so easily.
Which is why I hate people hiding things from me.
Because I feel like I'm not accepted enough to KNOW things.
Because it hurts to know that I'm not trusted by someone I trust a lot.
I don't want you to apologise.
I don't want you to apologise for something that should be blamed on my insecurity.
I just want you to be happy.
I want you to smile, day and night.
I want you to stay healthy, stay safe.
And if all of this is achieved, then I'll know I did the right thing, leaving you.