♫ 어제와 다른 오늘 - 지은

I woke up today feeling like total shit. I was feeling damn lost and just plain fucked up. But I woke up and went to school anyway. -_-; I was trying to calm myself down so throughout the whole car trip I was listening to my slow songs folder. I actually tried to cheer myself up by listening to F T I S L A N D but I just kept on repeating it and not even managing to listen to it once through.

Yeah, something major's up when FTI can't cheer me up. =(

I'm still feeling quite shitty, but better than I felt in the morning. On my way home, I had this urge to go to the graveyard to see my brother. Sigh. Third time. D: First time was my brother, 2nd time was -blah- and now third time. For the first time in my whole life, I really felt like the lives of the people around me would improve greatly if I just jump out of my window. (Its not difficult, I have no grilles..) After this latest one, I feel like... I'm just fucking useless. I can't do things right. People are always thinking I'm great and smart and nice but I'm just fucked up. ;o;

But you know how during devotion they said all kinds of stuff about appreciating what God gives you? Yeah, that made me stop and think. I might as well do something useful with my life now instead of wallowing in self-pity. =]

I was feeling damn OFF during lessons. I finished my math worksheet so fast that Ms Pang was like, "You finished... the WHOLE worksheet?" I just nodded numbly and she said, "Wow. Check your answers.." I got it all right anyway. Angles are freaking easy. u_u

Then I fell asleep during Art. AND MRS LO JABBED ME WITH HER STUPID FINGERNAIL. Damn pain lah please. So I just continued feeling like total shit. =(

We got shelled by Ms Soh for our classroom cleanliness. YEAH WE HAVE A DAMN DIRTY CLASSROOM.

Went out with Andrea, Eileen and Weihan after that. Damn funny. =DDD Cheered me up GREATLY. Thanksss~ I LOVE YOU! ♥

Basically just ate and chatted. But it was super funny cos Andrea's damn random. We took neoprints and the freaking machine was fucked up. xD

... hmm.. Now I'm still feeling quite sad. Actually fucking depressed but at least I'm trying to smile. =D THINK POSITIVE ADLIN. You'll get through this. Your boys love you! ^^

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I AM IN LOVE WITH 박형준. =O
HE IS SO FREAKING PRETTY OMFG.
YURIIII! HOW COULD YOU MAKE ME FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM?!
ZOMG HE'S SO PRETTY AS A GIRL.
AND CUTE AS A GUY.
KYAAAAAAAAAAAAA~

I will pimp him. I WILL! D:

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PEOPLE ARE TRYING TO CHEER ME UP! =D
Cos cos cos..
FC SEOUL MATCH TOMORROW! Against Utd!
I know they'll lose, so shush Claud..
BUT STILL YAY.
COS I SEE JI SUNG IN THE PICS.
I MISS MY MAN~
HE GREW SEXIER.
Maybe its the lust. o.o;