♫ 오에오 - 무가당

SCREW. SCREW SCREW SCREW ART.

Basically, I am NOT feeling all warm and fuzzly for tomorrow because...

1) I have NOT finished my art and I am not going to by TODAY at least
2) My leg still hurts, so I wonder how the cow I'll run during recess
3) LAP~ I bet Mr Ng will go on in his BORRRRING voice - "WHAAAAAALEEEEE RIIIIDEEERR"

Gah. Lately I've been super super tired. =( I think I'm just emotionally zapped. A lot of shit going on these few days. And I miss my brother like hell. Fuck. My birthday's coming up. 2nd time you're not here physically. I wonder if you even remember? August 14th not 13th. Mine's Aug 14th and Amylia's June 13th. Don't get it mixed it! D: Ahaha... I suppose you WILL be there, won't you? Don't come into my dreams only when I fight with RH. That's eeevil~ Its like he's THAT important. -_-;

I miss my girls... CAITLIN JANKA STOJANOVSKI~ You haven't blogged about your London trip! Then I decide to snoop around Rylet's folder and I find pics of you TOGETHER? *headdesk* DETAILS! Remind me to tell Ry-ry to resize his images too. Its taking ten minutes to load one picture! DDD:

I take it back. Its LONGER than 10 minutes! T_T But I seeeee the potential sweetness of the pict so I'm loading it.

Gaah~ And how I wish you two were still together~ Cos you make the CUTEST CUTEST couple ever.

OH OH OH. AUGUST THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TOOO~

1) MY BIIRRRTHDAY! :DDDDD
2) Hyesungie's 2nd album RELEASE~ ♥
3) *pause* RYLET'S BIRTHDAY! Woots~
4) LOOONG National Day weekend!
5) Meeting up with my darling 6F-ers on 8th, HOPEFULLY?
6) ZOMG BIG BANG'S 1ST YEAR ANNIVERSARY~

See see August looks GOOOOD! :DD

Ok, let's look for more random things to talk about...

Oh yes.

태극전사 영원히 참피언!
Pim Verbeek, you did well. Better than I expected. I will forget you though.

Shoutouts:
1) I miss you~ You look so tired. =( Take care of yourself, k? I'd love to meet up with you soon, but I don't think its possible... I love you. ♥
2) Darl, stop being so negative about your life. I'm sure there's more ups than downs, if you even bother to count. I can't keep telling you that life is meant to be HAPPY and not sad. Its affecting me as well. I hate seeing you so pessimistic. If you just change your perspective, you'd see things differently. COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS.
3) Hello! :DDD YOU OWE ME CHAPTER 3, MY SEXAAYEE~ And I want ACTION. xP
4) Ahaha~ I pity you, really. I KNOW YOU MISS NOT CHATTING WITH ME ONLINE. =D Maybe vice-versa. *cough* Never mind, really. I understand, k? Take it easy and chiiiill~ Cos you're always telling me to!

♪ THE "M" STYLE - M (이민우)

That song freaking ROCKS. I mean... Its MINWOO. And I'm addicted to it now. =D

So... Went out with TWO UNKNOWN PEOPLE today. I have no idea why I go out with strangers, really. But it was good, because UNKNOWN #1 split the bill with me. Apparently we were celebrating UNKNOWN #2's birthday. Freaky. When's UNKNOWN #2's birthday anyway?

Anyway, UNKNOWN #2 commented that I am a freak. D: How mean! She said my uniform is ugly. And and she said BAD BAD stuff about my uniform. T^T I'M PROUD OF MY POLKA DOTS. HARUMPH!

Then I got huffy and went to Wheelock Place, B2 and sat down. For some funny reason, these UNKNOWN people followed me. Then this little boy asked UNKNOWN #2 if she was from Nan Hua. Then UNKNOWN #2 said yeah and we started talking and whatever. So I honestly said I didn't know UNKNOWN #1 and that little boy asked UNKNOWN #1 to go away! And he started whacking UNKNOWN #1 and insulting him. Its this primary 1 kid from Fairfield Methodist. o.O So I got freaked out and wanted to leave. But that little kid refused to let UNKNOWN #1 go with us and started chasing him around. So I had to pull UNKNOWN #1 away from that freaky kid. And when we were running away, he called UNKNOWN #1 a bastard! FOUL-MOUTHED! And you ask me why I hate kids? GAH.

Uhm... Bowling's getting pretty fucked up. Not the sport and my seniors cos they rock, just the _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _. We were doing quite.. Differently yesterday, in terms of bowling. I got many many gutter balls. ;o; I was feeling a bit down and sorry for _ _ _ _ . MR _ _ _ is FUCKED UP ok. And if we don't stop misbehaving, they're gonna close us down. FUCK THEM LAH. D:

TRINITY GUILDHALL ORAL EXAMINATION WAS SO SO FUN! =DDD Mr James was seriously very nice. And for some funny reason I kept smiling? Even though I wanted to stop, the moment I opened my mouth and started talking I SMILED again! Only when I was doing my news article then I stopped, because I wanted to cry. T_T

Uhm. Oh yeah! We had this PLAIN ENGLISH SPEAKING COMPETITION thing. En Ci took part, and she won. xD She was so super funny. Natural. ALL HAIL THE CANDY GOD! =D

[edit] You know the whole korean hostages shit? Yeah. SOME PEOPLE are gonna burn in the deepest, darkest, hottest parts of hell. FUCK. They won't EVER COME OUT. Its not just the whole KOREAN thing here. Its a matter of HUMAN LIFE. FUCK YOU IF YOU THINK THAT WE'LL BOW DOWN TO YOU ASSHOLES. I'll see how YOU like to be taken hostage and gunned down. WTF?

♫ Call Ma Name - 무가당

I'm interested as to why my school has fucked up rules? No, don't answer that, srsly. -_-;

I shall blog a longer post tomorrow. I'm super tired. Had to do crazy mass stretch then run around the school. School wants to kill us lah... If we don't die of embarrassment first...

OH. If ANYONE calls me, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE sms me if I don't pick up? I have no freaking caller ID and I hate seeing missed calls from unnamed people! D:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MY HYX DARLING~

HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY LIZ~

HAPPY EARLIER BIRTHDAY SETSU-CHAN~ ♥♥♥♥

I see someone online. Wow. I haven't seen him online for like years? (Sure, its damn exaggerated but its the same lah..) I'm not bothering to talk cos I have no wish to talk to someone like him.

♫ Gentle Giant - 클래지콰이

I am DONE reading HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS. Took me about 4 hours? 600+ pages. =D
And because I am NOT like RH, I shall not spoil it for anyone. I mean, OPENLY. It shall be under a different colour! =D

START SPOILER/] OMFG! I love Snape! ♥♥♥♥♥♥ And I hate that Harry went with Ginny in the end. I mean, I DON'T LIKE GINNY! D: But Ron and Hermione! Isn't that so cute? I love that pairing. Then Kreacher is actually quite nice when you treat him well. Yay! I'm so sad that Dobby died though. T_T Along with Mad-Eyed Moody, Lupin, Tonks, Fred... The list is JUST SO LONG. Gahhhh~ JK ROWLING! Why did you kill Lupin and Tonks after they got married and had Ted Jr.?! STUPID STUPID! ;o; I'm damn happy you didn't kill off my sexy Draco though. OUR KID SCORPIUS. Did you run out of names? I totally forgive you then. Scorpius is a sort of sexy name now that I think of it. OUR KID~ xD I'm glad that you Dumbledore had a sort of SELFISH past, you know? Cos then it just proves nobody is perfect. =D I think its perfect how Harry named his kids James, Lily and Albus Severus. I loveeeeeeeeeee Snape! =DDD Ok. Draco above ALL of course. Cos HIM + ME = SCORPIUS. xP [/END SPOILER

Uhm. Lemme see... So I went out with RH today. To get Hyx's present. xD But cos he is a dork, he decided to wait at Novena until my train came so he can board it. Change of plans. I got off with my sis and mum, and we went to United Square to get Harry Potter. =D My sis and RH were talking crap lah. What, she told him that if I lunch out, must make sure I eat healthy? And then RH just laughed. D: Evil, I know. So after that, went our separate ways. My sis went to Square2 for shopping and... The two of us just went to town. Wheelock. We went to Borders and saw losers lining up for the book. I WAS HOLDING IT IN MY HAND. Muahahahaha! *cough* Actually... We went there to meet Dione who was doing Flag Day. xD Was forced to donate, OBVIOUSLY. *coughFORCED!cough* Kirin kept sticking the stickers on me. And she kept replacing them when I took them off. T_T So yeah, I walked around town with 4 stickers until she left, then I dumped it all on RH. AHA!

Lunched at Sakae. But it was still early after that. Ended up slacking at Gelare. xD Then I asked Dione what she thought of RH and her reply shocked me so much I nearly choked on what I was eating. BAD TASTE. ALL OF YOU, BAD TASTE! Yeah. The loser took the book, flipped to the back and TOLD ME WHAT HAPPENED. LOSER YOU! ♥

Yeah, I'm happy. ^_^

And yup, I AM referring to someone specific in my previous post. =D

I ♥ YOU. =D

♫ 다음날 (승리 solo) - 빅뱅

I'm going to beg my parents to let me go overseas now. I'm sick of this place. Maybe I'll stay with Tauffek and Linda in Australia? I need a change of environment. My mum actually encouraged me to try and get a scholarship overseas, so maybe I will. I said no at first, because I didn't want to leave a certain someone here but now that... Yeah, so maybe I will. Matthew's going to Melbourne? Hmm... And Caitlin's to Sydney?

I just need to get away from this place. I can't even count all my bad memories. My brother's death, the fruithead, ladeeladeela... There's nothing keeping me here anymore. I would actually try Korea, but let's be realistic.

[edit] So I went to bed again. Cos I dreamt of my brother last night and wanted to dream of him again. I basically woke up crying in the morning. =( I think the things he told me really woke me up. It was one of those dreams that my family gets. Like, where we can't see his face, but we can can hear his voice. D:

Uhm. It was about what happened, really. He said he's proud that I'm getting through everything, because he thinks my life has been sorta shitty for someone my age. Then I told him that maybe it'd be good if I left here, not commit suicide, but go overseas. And... I actually remember every single thing he said.

"Its up to you, how you make the best of it. Are you willing to leave ____ here? Because even though you act like its nothing, I know that you're hurting badly and you miss ____. And you know you're wrong, but because you always do the wrong things, you think, Hey, why not just fall right in. Actually... I think you love him the way you love me. You've just been through a lot of crap with trust that you don't want to show it much to him. You're just afraid of hurting him... You need to stop doing that, because you're hurting him more. And stop being a jabroni and just say sorry. Deep down, can you bear to lose him? I'm not going to visit him, so I'm not going to know how he's doing now but its probably not good. Can he bear to lose you? I'm not answering that. You're old enough to think for yourself."

And I was thinking, that's why I need to leave. FOR SOME FUNNY REASON, HE KNEW I WAS THINKING THAT?! Wth.. So he told me to patch it up with _____. But after reading something I think it'll be much better if I leave.

Ok, enough with that...

DAESANGS! I am gunning for FT Island winning 신인 그룹. =D Cos from all the news articles lately, everyone's into them. And its like, 사랑앓이 is top of A LOT of charts. Oh, that, and they're just too damn cute.

I LOVE AMY! ♥ Cos she wrote me the 2nd part of my fic and WB's turning up everywhere in PJs. xD AND HONGKI'S MY BEST FRIEND WHO IS A TOTAL.. DOOFBAG. Woots~

♫ 어제와 다른 오늘 - 지은

I woke up today feeling like total shit. I was feeling damn lost and just plain fucked up. But I woke up and went to school anyway. -_-; I was trying to calm myself down so throughout the whole car trip I was listening to my slow songs folder. I actually tried to cheer myself up by listening to F T I S L A N D but I just kept on repeating it and not even managing to listen to it once through.

Yeah, something major's up when FTI can't cheer me up. =(

I'm still feeling quite shitty, but better than I felt in the morning. On my way home, I had this urge to go to the graveyard to see my brother. Sigh. Third time. D: First time was my brother, 2nd time was -blah- and now third time. For the first time in my whole life, I really felt like the lives of the people around me would improve greatly if I just jump out of my window. (Its not difficult, I have no grilles..) After this latest one, I feel like... I'm just fucking useless. I can't do things right. People are always thinking I'm great and smart and nice but I'm just fucked up. ;o;

But you know how during devotion they said all kinds of stuff about appreciating what God gives you? Yeah, that made me stop and think. I might as well do something useful with my life now instead of wallowing in self-pity. =]

I was feeling damn OFF during lessons. I finished my math worksheet so fast that Ms Pang was like, "You finished... the WHOLE worksheet?" I just nodded numbly and she said, "Wow. Check your answers.." I got it all right anyway. Angles are freaking easy. u_u

Then I fell asleep during Art. AND MRS LO JABBED ME WITH HER STUPID FINGERNAIL. Damn pain lah please. So I just continued feeling like total shit. =(

We got shelled by Ms Soh for our classroom cleanliness. YEAH WE HAVE A DAMN DIRTY CLASSROOM.

Went out with Andrea, Eileen and Weihan after that. Damn funny. =DDD Cheered me up GREATLY. Thanksss~ I LOVE YOU! ♥

Basically just ate and chatted. But it was super funny cos Andrea's damn random. We took neoprints and the freaking machine was fucked up. xD

... hmm.. Now I'm still feeling quite sad. Actually fucking depressed but at least I'm trying to smile. =D THINK POSITIVE ADLIN. You'll get through this. Your boys love you! ^^

[edit]

I AM IN LOVE WITH 박형준. =O
HE IS SO FREAKING PRETTY OMFG.
YURIIII! HOW COULD YOU MAKE ME FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM?!
ZOMG HE'S SO PRETTY AS A GIRL.
AND CUTE AS A GUY.
KYAAAAAAAAAAAAA~

I will pimp him. I WILL! D:

[edit#2]

PEOPLE ARE TRYING TO CHEER ME UP! =D
Cos cos cos..
FC SEOUL MATCH TOMORROW! Against Utd!
I know they'll lose, so shush Claud..
BUT STILL YAY.
COS I SEE JI SUNG IN THE PICS.
I MISS MY MAN~
HE GREW SEXIER.
Maybe its the lust. o.o;

♫ 이별하길 정말 잘했어요 - SG 워너비

KOREA REPUBLIC WON INDONESIA!
SAUDI ARABIA WON BAHRAIN...

So my dear boys are into the quarter-finals! I was screaming cos they had 4 mins of injury time. xD But yay Jungwoo! They held on till the end. Its no secret that they nearly always manage to concede in the later part of the game but not this one. =DD

I'm seriously happy now! *twirls*

Racial Harmony Day today was interesting. Everyone was so confused, cos they didn't know if we had to wear the house t-shirt or not. It was all a prank or something? I was in my school uniform, so I don't care. xD

The celebrations were sorta BORING. D:

So champion house for RHD is FEARON. T_T
2nd is GAGEBROWN! YAY~
3rd's Cooke. xP
4th's Tolley. (I KNOWWWW they're nearly always last..)

Quite a slack day. I fell asleep while doing my UNSW English. *cough* It was all like COMPREHENSION stuff anyway... So I did it when I was half-asleep. I assume I'll get a credit or lower. Slack work, can't expect much.

ANDREA PON SCHOOL TODAY. -_-;
YOU DUMP ME UH.

OH YEAH.
KSRFC drew with Rovers. =D
THAAAAANKK YOU HYO JOON~
WE LOVE YOU! ^^
Damn happy cos it means they're going up! Yay~

♫ 결혼하지마 - 플라이 투 더 스카이

KNB. Korea FUCKING lost to Bahrain 2-1. The moment Bahrain equalised in the 40-whatever minute, I gave up and went to bed. -_-; SEE, I expected a DRAW. But no, of course not, Korea takes this great chance to screw up and let Bahrain SCORE. I shall not be mean cos I love my KNT men, but seriously, Korean football is going DOWN.

So currently, my team's at the bottom of Grp D. They HAVE to win Indonesia and Saudi Arabia HAS to win Bahrain for Korea to get to the quarters. But at least Verbeek is taking the blame. I applaud him. He knows he's stupid for not bringing in my two FC Seoul boys.. And Ji Hoon, of course. =D

Today, only had PE and DoT. Because we did health screening during LAP and Math! =)) Yay~ Then Ms Tan had to go to SJI to invigilate their listening compre. Bloop! So I slacked during science and just cleaned the classroom.

1E4 got D for classroom cleanliness! BRAVO CLASS! Let's get another D and do CWO with Mr Goh! *cough*

I am fucking sick. I need to stop coughing. My throat is sore enough without me coughing like a maniac every three seconds. My voice sounds damn nasal-y now? And I keep sniffling. Its terrible, srsly. I think I need to rest early. But I'm still up blogging! ^^

Oh yeah. We actually talked about counting your blessings in today's DoT. And I totally agree. We should thank God for everything we have now, like our family, friends, school, home, country, everything. Because for everything that's wrong, something right will come along and correct it. I think about this a lot. Like how my life would be different if I was missing someone, something. Everything comes by for a reason~ While we may complain endlessly, let's think about how many thousands of people out there are actually in a much worse state than us.

We complain about how we're fat when we're obviously not. How many people out there don't even have food to eat and here you are starving yourself on PURPOSE? We complain about how our friends have the latest modesl of some crazy electronic gadget. Well, then think. How much of what we want is necessary? I admit, I indulge myself a lot. Its not something I'm proud of.

I admit, I want to cry when I walk along the streets and see the people who are so much less fortunate than us. Because I realise what a spoilt bitch I've been. Sometimes, we've got to learn to give and take. To have this equal balance in us. So as not to end up being some crazy apathetic person who is of no use to the society.

Yeah, I just... thought about this.

♫ Lover Boy - 클래지콰이

Yay~ Today's the LAST DAY of yoga! *cheers* I know all of you are like, "WTF YOU TAKE YOGA?!" Well, rest assured, its NOT consensual. I was blackmailed into sign that application form. And now I refuse to go for intermediate lessons. I will end up breaking my leg or pulling my muscle or SNAPPING it even.

You know, I love Firefox. Its so much better than the screwed IE. But lately, I realised that my sister updated it and now it SPELL-CHECKS for me? Unless the dictionary originates from Singapore, I foresee days of many red underlined words. Just yesterday, I wrote FCUKING and when I saw the red underline, I right-clicked and stared at the two options. "FUCKING/FLUCKING" I didn't click any. And so, for the rest of the day, whenever I right-clicked, I saw those two words. Is that stupid of Firefox or what?

I realised I have a lot of things to do. Like my modding work on YGBB. Sorry Jess~ I will get to it soon ok? I'm two weeks over! T_T

Oh, I just realised how much I LOVE Younha! =D I know Vanessa's in love with her already, but seriously, Younha rocks~ I would pimp her, but I'm too lazy now. 8D;

♫ 생의 한가운데 - 클래지콰이

NEW LAYOUT! FT ISLAND! I know it was supposed to be Fly to the Sky, but after staring at Hwan Hee's face for AGES, I realised I still hate his new hair. T_T

So I went out to watch Harry Potter with RH and Hyx yesterday.

Conclusion: David Yates is a fcuking bad director.

They cut out SO many important scenes! And how come the scene where Sirius died is so.. short? Like WTF?! I had HIGH hopes but immediately got CRUSHED when the first scene was... God knows how many pages into chapter 1? Damn. ;o;

But there was this whole bunch of korean KIDS behind me. By kids I really mean KIDS. They were damn noisy. In the middle, they'd be commenting on Hermione or Harry or something. I was giggling cos I could understand them, and RH kept telling me to ask them to shut up.

So after that, went home. MRT was super crowded. RH and Hyx decided to be extremely weird and follow me on the train, then alight at Newton. Apparently, they said they would go home, but NO, they went to NYDC, saw the long queue, then went for BK. And they kept saying they were too busy to go another day. SO AFTER LEAVING ME IN THE CROWDED MRT, THEY WENT OFF TOGETHER.

I have great friends. [/sarcasm]

Came home, watched KSRFC match. =D ZOMG. I can't believe that we lost 1-0! That is... an UNBELIEVABLE score! I thought there would be a much bigger goal difference. The new boys did really well. Woung Ki was awesome as the skipper. Really motivated the boys. I thought that after the coach got sent off, they would all go CRASHING down, but no! Only 10 minutes after Tae Geun got sent off did SAFFC score. ^^; Then Hyun Jun did well when he came on, totally attempting to score. And he nearly did. Just that the SAFFC GK blocked it and ended up injuring his leg. *cough*

For the compo test on Fri, I wrote 6 1/2 pages! *rocks* I hope Mr Ng gets eyeache reading it. SERIOUSLY. HMPH. Try springing that stupid test on me. I don't care if I do badly, seriously. I wrote crap anyway. =D

I'm still sick with the freaking FLU. And its 5.02PM and I've only eaten once today. I don't even feel like eating. Stupid flu ruined my appetite. D:

♫ Ma Girl (태양 solo) - 빅뱅

My calf muscle is all tightened up, so I couldn't go to school today. T_T Hurts like SHIT when I try to walk. But its all good now. I went to the doctors and got medicine and everything. I expect I'll fall asleep soon, because the meds ARE supposed to make me drowsy... Oooh! I also went for ECG and a blood test! I hate needles. D:

SOUTH KOREA (1) : SAUDI ARABIA (1)

I don't CARE what anyone says. THAT foul was NOT a foul. Much of a foul. And I think that those kind of goals, PENALTY kicks, those goals are really just not counted. SO HMPH, to me, Korea WON! Choi Sung Kook was SO SO SO cute~ He's damn mini but gahhhh~ After he was substituted, he sat on the bench with no shirt on. EYE CANDY! *loves*

And yeah, the match was supposed to end at 1030PM local time but BECAUSE of the stupid stadium being seriously... BLEH, it ended at around 1100PM? Like WTF lah... Not that I minded, cos I had loads of fun ogling at the guys.

The commentators were damn cool. xD They kept saying that if Park Ji Sung, Seol Ki Hyeon and Lee Young Pyo were there, Korea would have a superstar team. YAY~ I agree! But I still stand by my statement that Ju Young, Ji Hoon and Jo Gook should have been there. -_-;

Oh, one last thing about the match - the players KEPT falling down. MY players. I swear it was happening ever so often! And the KSA players kept kicking the ball OUT. Look, I KNOW my team rocks and everything, and you fear the moment they touch the ball a goal would follow, but seriously, football is played ON THE FIELD, not OFF. =.=;

1 month and 2 days! =DDD DON'T FORGET~

WONBIN is MINE. ♥
AND SO is JAEJIN.

♫ Prayers - 클래지콰이

OH. 10th July!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO...

김희철 & 박주영!

So... Like any other day, I nearly died during lessons. D: Gahhh~ I was so so so sleepy! I have no idea why, because I have around 7 hours of sleep everyday. *headdesk*

Oh, I scratched myself during music. Cos the double bass had this plug thingy sticking out, it was SUPER sharp. Being the klutz that I am, POOF, suddenly there I am, with this painful scratch. Its ugly. T_T And painful. And red. And SWOLLEN.

Clare plays the double bass. ZOMG.

*cough* I DON'T LIKE ANDREA OR WEIHAN. ;o; The first thing they said to me when I met them during assembly is...

WONBIN SUCKS.

*sniffs* WELL WHATEVER! WONBIN > EVERYONE ELSE. HARUMPH.

So Hee Unni went crazy over Junior and Syndrome today. xD She likes Hongki, but she kept saying that Wonbin's really cute too. =DDD And she was going, "Wah his body damn nice... Eh, Tae Hun's body's like that also you know!" *cough*

OH OH OH.

GUESS WHAT?!

I came home today, feeling like I would fall onto my bed and DIEEEE but... APPARENTLY NOT! I dumped my bag next to the sofa and noticed something next to my teddy bear.

...
...
...

MY BIG BANG POSTERS! IT ARRIVED! Cos I was looking out for those poster tubes, and there it was! *dies* I was HUGGING it so much all the way to my computer table.

THANK YOU SO MUCH JESS! ♥

[edit] ZOMG. I was looking at the posters and I was thinking, "WHY is there a smaller poster amongst the BIG BIG ones?" AND THEN I TOOK IT OUT AND..

JUNJIN! SPECIAL EDITION POSTER! IT CAME WITH THE BIG BANG! =OOO

At first I though, Oh wow, they're promoting Ji Eun! But then now, JUNJIN?!

WTF. Life rocks.

[edit#2]

OK WTH?! YOU FUCKING IDIOTS WHO HACKED INTO THE MNET SYSTEM AND LEAKED MINWOO'S ALBUM, YOU'VE GOT NO FUCKING CONSCIENCE! NOW HIS ALBUM IS POSTPONED AGAIN. GO. TO. HELL!

Poor Minwoo oppa collapsed after he heard his album got leaked! I mean, look, artistes are PEOPLE too. SINGING is their way of life. I don't understand what's so DIFFICULT about trying to GET their albums at least. Sure. I admit I'm guilty of *coughcough*, but if I REALLY like the artiste and I wanna show my support for them, I BUY the album! I can dream about meeting them and everything, but how often is that going to happen? The least I can do is support them from behind, right?

SO SHAME ON YOU FREAKING IDIOT. IF YOU DARE TO DO THAT TO HYESUNG, I WILL SKEWER YOUR ASS AND WHACK YOU WITH A SLEDGEHAMMER. D:

♫ 하지말래요 - FT 아일랜드

9th July!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 조재진 & 이천수!

태극전사 아자아자 화이팅!
Asian Cup match coming up in 2 days!

GAH. 5 stations today. It was total shit because I kept jumping like.. ... ... dunno. I double-stepped one too. SO I HAVE TO REDO?! But at least my sit-ups were ok. 25. Passed. xD

Uhm... It was a long school day... I'm totally tired, but I'm doing DanHwan forum stuff. WHICH REMINDS ME... I should go pimp it on LJ. YEI~

During Science today, Ms Tan was going through the acronyms for DST. And I instantly went, "DYLAN'S STUPID TEACHER!" Damn.. I srsly miss 6F. ;o; Yeah, I miss you guys. =( Especially MINGSTER and the CUTTLEFISH! *sniffles* Its so freaking sad how I couldn't play card games with you guys cos MINGSTER made HJ and me do the slide thing. *coughEVILcough*

ANDREA! You and Amalina ah.. Argue argue.. The sky fall down, I bet you'll still be arguing. Well, whatever. I won't pick Jaejin OR Hongki. WONBIN!

오원빈의신별 ♥

Hah. AMY ACKNOWLEDGES IT TOO. =D

HONGKI is PROPERTY of AMY.
and..
WONBIN is PROPERTY of ME! =D

I was going through old Inkigayo episodes and all I can say is.. Wow, korean music HAS changed. Its not a bad thing, but at the same time its not a good thing. I can't help missing old skool kpop, like EUSHA EUSHA! xD It was lame, terrible and corny. But yes, old skool kpop rocks. I still find the HUGE BAGGY BASKETBALL JERSEYS horrible, though. D:

Oh YES. Last night, Hanis and Uwe came over for dinner. =D WE HAD CHILLI CRABS! And I attacked the sweet & sour fish, of course. Its my favourite dish. *cough* Unfortunately, I don't really like to eat crabs nowadays. I'm too lazy to... pick through it. BLEH. But it was super funny after that cos we were playing with our phones~ Hanis was complaining that all the tones she downloads are like shit and she PAYS for them too. So my sis and I kept going, FOR WHAT... Then we bluetoothed her a couple of songs. SHE LIKES FT ISLAND'S 사랑앓이! Now, there's another person I made like that song. =O I am incredible.

Yeah, and my sis and I realised what terrible names my mum and aunt had for their phones, so we renamed! We kept asking Hanis what she wanted, but she said dunno, so I was like, "RAIN!" and yeah, its Rain. *smug* My mum's became MAGIC. xD I nearly banged my head against the table when she said HARRY POTTER. At least MAGIC's not so bad, huh? My sister's is MINWOO'S ANGEL and mine's.. WONBIN's newSTAR! =D

Oh. And while I'm at it, lemme complain about CLARE.

After a blissfully ignorant recess, I came up to class, only to be VEHEMENTLY tapped by her (TRADEMARK), then she was like, "YOU BAD BAD GIRL! YOU BAD!" then I'm like WTF?! And she says, "YOU BENT AMINAH'S WHALE! SHE'S VERY SAD YOU KNOW. SAD! BAD GIRL YOU!" ... ok, now seriously WTF?!?! I didn't REALLY bend her whale. -_-; Ok, so MAYBE I did, but I did it on Friday? During chapel? And I bent it back. HEY, how come she didn't complain then... YOU DON'T MIND RIGHT? (if you say you do, I'm not gonna do anything about it anyway.. X= ) She's fcuking crazy. She disturbed Ariel too. (Who was, like me, just as freaked out...)

I know it seems mean, but she's become WEIRDER after the holidays. D: I thank god she's stopped accusing me of lying about my bro's death.

♫ Primadonna - FT 아일랜드

So I have no life. WISHLIST TIME! =D I actually just stole this from my LJ. *cough* Then edited it majorly cos I have loads of stuff on it already.

WHAT I WANT FOR MY 13TH BIRTHDAY
• LETTERS! + cards (See. TOTALLY inexpensive. I'm quite easy to please, really...)
• TEDDY BEARS! (if you have no idea how much I love teddy bears, imma dunk your head in a vat of acid. D: )
• HUGS (yaye~ If you won't give me any, get me a plane ticket to Korea so I can go steal some from those people on the streets..)
• iPod Video (imagine. Korean. Shows. MVs. MRT TRAIN. =D)
• Quick Download on Clubbox (next best thing to ANYTHING cos then I'll be able to watch my music shows much earlier..)
• Paid Account on LJ (*coughcoughcough*)

- ALBUMS
• Big Mama - Big Mama Vol. 2 - It's Unique
• Big Mama - Big Mama Vol. 3 - For the People
• Brian - Brian Solo Album - The Brian
• BUZZ - Buzz Vol. 3 - Perfect
• Clazziquai - Vol. 3 - Love Child of the Century
• Epik High - Vol. 4 - Remapping The Human Soul
• Fly To The Sky - Vol. 7 - No Limitations
• Gummy - Gummy Vol. 2 - It's Different
• Gummy - Gummy Vol. 3 - For The Bloom
• Jang Woo Hyuk - Jang Woo Hyuk Vol. 2 - My Way
• Ji Eun - Vol. 1 - Rain
• Kim Dongwan - Vol. 1 - Kim Dongwan Is (I don't REALLY need this, I can just leech off my sis..)
• LEXY - Vol. 3 - Rush
• M - Vol. 3 - Explore M (I MEAN. ITS MINWOO.)
• Moogadang - Moogadang - 1st Single
• My Aunt Mary - My Aunt Mary Vol. 4 - Drift
• SE7EN - Se7en Vol. 3 - 24/7
• SE7EN - Se7en Vol. 4 - Se7olution
• SG Wannabe - SG Wannabe Vol. 3 - The 3rd Masterpiece
• SG Wannabe - SG Wannabe Best Album - History
• Tim - TIM Vol. 3 - Feelings
• TRAX - TRAX Vol. 1 - First Rain
• Various - Dong Gam (Sympathy) Vol. 4 - Four Seasons
• Various - Music Drama Winter Story
• Wheesung - Wheesung Vol. 4 - Love...Love...? Love...!

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Yes, I'm scary. =D

AND I LOVE YOU AMY, FOR WRITING ME A FIC. ♥

♫ 남겨진 사람 - 플라이 투 더 스카이

New layout coming! Its Fly to the Sky, I hope. xD I'll try to do something with it. I'm not digging Hwan Hee's image though. D: I imagine it'll be up by my BIRTHDAY. Cos I'm gonna be doing a lot of shuffling with my pages and whatnot.

Bowling today. =D It was totally fun. Was with Weihan and Andrea in a lane. I only topped the lane for ONE game? The 3rd one. We had to do 40 frames. Crazyyyyyy~ I got two strikes out of 4 games ok. How pathetic is that? Though overall, I did better than I've done all year. Andrea DAMN lucky. She got 7 or 8 strikes? WTH can?! Weihan and I were like DDDDD: all the way.

I've got FANS! xD Interesting, isn't it? I apparently ALREADY have supporters if I'm gonna be an author. I let Dione read, and she showed her bro who was awed. *cough* Then Sonia CRIED while reading 'Melancholy'. And 'The Guy Not Taken' is everyone's favourite. Even mine. Cos it has a HAPPIER ending than the other. En Ci now demands I bring all my other stories to school to let her read. Shi Ying and Kirin kept on going, "OMG YOU WROTE THIS?!"

Though I have to say, I wrote all of that LAST YEAR. I haven't written a decent piece of thing ALL year. RH's demanding something. 8D; I WILL come up with something... You've got to give it TIME. I got my basic storyline down, but I'm trying to arrange it. And I think my vocabulary SHRUNK over the year, so I'm gonna be nosing through the dictionary like a nerd again.

"I should have loved you with my all, but now you live forgetting me..."
- 사랑앓이 (FT Island)

I love that whole line. Its like my favourite line in the WHOLE song. I think that's the main reason I like to show people how much I love them. Sometimes, they just need to feel loved. Or they're gonna end up feeling neglected, and drifting away from you. And if I could turn back time, I would probably apply this to every single person I know I would never want to lose.

Abang, I miss you so much. Time heals all wounds. That phrase is crap. Day by day, I miss you more and more. The things I wouldn't do to hold you one last time, to hear your laugh, to just see your face in the flesh. I don't care what happened to your physical body. I'm sure spritually, you're as handsome as I remember you. And will always remember you. I fear so much that I may one day forget you. I'm always trying to act happy, be busy, forget a lot of things. But when I've got nothing to do, its as though reality has slapped me hard across the face. I know you're gone. I keep on telling myself to accept it. I have accepted it. I just can't BELIEVE it. I used to watch all those dramas and think how horrid it would be to lose a family member. I can't believe its happening to me. And its all shit how those drama ends, with the person ALWAYS managing to get over the grief. Like WTF?

I'm sick of always pretending to be strong. Pretending like nothing is wrong. But there is. Huge parts of my life. All wrong. I like to create a fantasy world for myself. And just think, hey, this is where I belong. But do I really? I need to fucking wake up and see the world as it is.

The thing that hurts me the most is how much people think I have forgotten you. And that I am trying to get rid of your memory. I'm not sure if I'll ever let go of you. Even if I can just hold you by a sliver of flesh, I will. I want to.

I still need you so badly. I can't ever find someone to replace you. Have you been sending people to me? Sometimes I think you are. If you have, I've lost one. He was a pathetic replacement, seriously. Now there's one more. I want to say I KNOW he's gonna be there for me, but I can't trust myself anymore. I always end up trusting the wrong people and hurting myself. I need to start taking care of myself, not being dependant on people like they're drugs.

Damn I'm feeling so fucking sick.

♫ 사랑해 - 플라이 투 더 스카이

I AM IN LOVE WITH NO LIMITATIONS. Damn, you people HAVE to buy it. Definitely won't regret it. I missed Hwan Hee's voice SO MUCH. And Brian, no need to say, he had his solo album and everything. xD

So I went out with RH and Hyx on Monday. We went to Swensen's. 8D; Crazy RH decided to try on Hyx's HUGE hoop earring. If you must know, I tried not to see it. I DIDN'T, actually. I was embarassed like shit cos Swensen's was like full house? Then HYX decided to grant me a nightmare and put this BIG BIG picture on her blog.

DAMN YOU CHOO HUAY YEE. D:

FT Island's CD is like FREAKING awesome. The photobook is HUGE. I love love love it? WOOTS~ I practically spazzed over every single photo. xD I mean, I've seen them all before but I STILL spazzed. *cough*

I MADE ANDREA CRAZY OVER JAEJIN AND SHE MADE AMALINA CRAZY OVER HONG KI.

I'm like, what, Korean music promoter or something? S. Korea should totally employ me to share the love. I'll do it for free, but if they pay me with say, uhm, YG FAMILY or something, I really wouldn't complain. =D

Bowling tomorrow! I am not looking forward to dragging 12 pounds of my ball, but I have no choice, right? If I get a new ball, I am getting one which does not have a REN or a HUI in it. Cos I can't feed RH's crazily huge ego.

♫ 행복합니다 - F.T. Island

Am I the only one who thinks that Wonbin playing the harmonica in 행복합니다 is the sexiest thing since Big Bang? D:

Just to prove that the FT Island boys are ghei...




Jonghun is raping Minhwan. xD And Wonbin's trying to cheat on Jaejin. Yes, I'm on crack. I can't help it. These boys make me happy. (For all who don't know, I am not afraid to show that I think guy/guy is hot. But only with my korean guys. My ultimate OTP is G-Ri, because nothing beats leader/maknae)

And I MISS Big Bang. YG needs to come out with NEW ARTISTES *coughMAYDONIcough* so that it keeps my mind off those sexyCUTE boys. ;o;

I've been slacking a lot. My muscles still hurt. I think its obvious I pulled it. But I'm going out for lunch with RH and Hyx later, so if it acts up I'm ignoring it. Its not SO bad. Just that walking up stairs is a pain in the ass. T_T

Because I wanna PIMP my birthday for obvious reasons..

14TH AUGUST.

Next month! Remember it.

I shall come up with a TOTALLY materialistic wishlist later. Which would include a lot, if not all, korean stuff. xD Dum dum dum~

OH. And to prove I AM seriously obsessed...



YAY~ That is what I wake up to every single morning. =D I'm waiting for my BB posters, which Jess ordered on Sat, so it should be arriving soon. *loves Jess* Yes, there's SuJu, its HUGE. FTI's smaller, I know that too. You can see small FTI, Big Bang, SuJuT, Battle, Shinhwa, FTTS, SE7EN, 1TYM...

I need more. D: